It's a.......

BOY!!

Okay, so I do admit I thought having a little girl would be fun. But now that I know we're having a boy, I am so happy and excited! Tripp will finally have a little buddy to play with. Bryant is so good with him, and I know he will be so good with this next little guy as well. All looked well at the ultrasound, and I am the most thankful that we are having a healthy baby. My only worry is this: I love Tripp so much and spoil him rotten and think he's the most adorable little person to ever walk the planet. So is it possible to love two little boys that much? I can't even imagine! It must be possible though, and I can't wait until I get to meet this little guy! We love him so much already and even Bryant is talking about him more and more. He's not really one to talk much about baby stuff, but he has started to, and he even felt his little kicks for the first time last night. Pretty cool! Now I need to start planning the boys' bedroom, decide on the name, go through the 8 bins of baby boy clothes and decide what I will need (convenient, I know), and get a shopping list together. I am glad I have almost everything I need already because this will decrease my stress and allow me to budget for the big things we still need-like a double stroller and possibly a crib.
Sad day for me, I was happy I hadn't gained any weight yet because with my last pregnancy I gained way too much... then at the Dr. appointment yesterday the scale told me I had gained 5 pounds! In less than a month! What is going on here??! I know this is a natural part of pregnancy, but honestly--I'm not really wanting to gain more than 25 pounds. At this new rate of increase I will exceed that goal very quickly. On a good note, my baby belly has started to show and I have started to wear some of my maternity clothes. It is nice to have a bit more room for the little munchkin. Those tight shirts just weren't looking all that great. I am hoping to cross the line between "fat" and "obviously pregnant" here soon so I don't feel so self-conscious.
Besides all the little shallow concerns like weight gain and baby belly, etc, I am just so happy that things are going well so far. I have tried really hard to not let my previous pregnancy issues cause me stress with this one. I am trying to plan ahead as much as possible so my stress level will stay under control. I am praying that nothing goes wrong this time around. I don't know how I would handle three weeks in the hospital again. But I would do it gladly if the baby is healthy. I will be having a planned C-section around June 25th (I will be 39 weeks). The doctor even said he could get rid of my horrific C-section scar I acquired last time! Yesss! I hope and pray things go smoothly. My biggest daydream is having a C-section, being awake for it, and hearing my little munchkin crying right away. I also am hoping I will be able to hold him and tell him I love him right away, instead of what happened with Tripp. I was one of the last to meet him, he didn't breathe for 2 minutes after he was born (so no immediate crying), and I wasn't awake during the surgery. I am hoping to replace those painful memories with good ones.
I am so grateful for the support my husband gives me, and that he is so concerned about mine and the baby's health. He really cares about us and it has made it so much easier on me because I can voice my worries and concerns to him whenever I need to. I am grateful to my family and friends as well for supporting me and helping me keep a positive outlook with this pregnancy. It helps so much!
Well, there is the update for now. I'm sure there will be more pregnancy thoughts to come shortly, since that's about all I think about these days.